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YellowLioness · 04-26-2005, 08:29 AM

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I 've had alot going on. Moving from one area to another and what not.

Anyway, my dad and I have an odd relationship- he's more of a kid then I am. We were both pretty much raised by my grandma, so we're more like siblings then father/daughter.

Back when I was 15, my grandma died of colon cancer. I'm not even going to try to explain to you how hard it was to lose a "parent," to such a horrid death.

My dad has had several polyps removed from his colon over the years, the doctors say that for some reason his grow much faster then they are supposed to. To give you an idea of how fast- most polyps gestate for approximately 10 years before they have to be removed. Dad has to get polyps the size of oranges removed every year.

So, now his colon wall has thinned to the point where they have to take a large portion of his colon out. He's only 56, and I'm freaking out because he's deteriorating to quickly.

First mawmaw, now dad. I just don't know how to take it. It was bad enough to see one parent die, and now it's happening all over again.

My mom was like, "you should pray for him." But, I can't bring myself to. I prayed for grandma, and it did not reduce her pain, or lengthen her life. I feel it would be pointless for me to ask God for help, now.

Please do me a favor and for those of you who are smugly religious, do not throw it in my face. I am looking for words of advice and comfort, or maybe wisdom in how to handle this situation.

04-26-2005, 08:29 AM	#1 (permalink)
YellowLioness Regular Contributer Join Date: Dec 2004 Posts: 173	My Dad is ill Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I 've had alot going on. Moving from one area to another and what not. Anyway, my dad and I have an odd relationship- he's more of a kid then I am. We were both pretty much raised by my grandma, so we're more like siblings then father/daughter. Back when I was 15, my grandma died of colon cancer. I'm not even going to try to explain to you how hard it was to lose a "parent," to such a horrid death. My dad has had several polyps removed from his colon over the years, the doctors say that for some reason his grow much faster then they are supposed to. To give you an idea of how fast- most polyps gestate for approximately 10 years before they have to be removed. Dad has to get polyps the size of oranges removed every year. So, now his colon wall has thinned to the point where they have to take a large portion of his colon out. He's only 56, and I'm freaking out because he's deteriorating to quickly. First mawmaw, now dad. I just don't know how to take it. It was bad enough to see one parent die, and now it's happening all over again. My mom was like, "you should pray for him." But, I can't bring myself to. I prayed for grandma, and it did not reduce her pain, or lengthen her life. I feel it would be pointless for me to ask God for help, now. Please do me a favor and for those of you who are smugly religious, do not throw it in my face. I am looking for words of advice and comfort, or maybe wisdom in how to handle this situation.