I will go but I don't think I will start untill the baby is born, that may not be the best decision but I only have 2 days left of work, I am so stressed out and I don't thinik my body can produce anymore tears.
I don't want to work on myself right now, him, our relationship friendship ect I just want to be pregnant... maby thats stupid but that's how I feel.
I am having a hard time accepting some very important facts, the fact that I will never beable to love again. Yes I am young I know but I just can't pull my children into another relationship, I won't let any man live with us EVER!! and that hurts me but I must do it for them. All I ever really wanted was a faimly and a husband who loves us and accepting the fact that it's not going to happen for a VERY VERY long time is painful & upsetting.
I am going to continue to go to counseling bymyself witch is crucial right now, and I am trying to distance myself from Greg in or out of the home, I have NO JOB within 2 days witch is scarry but I am going to ask him for a personal loan if he leaves, there really is no reason why he should decline I loaned him 11k last year and he didn't even ask for it, so hopefully he will loan me some money to pay my rent for the next 5 months... we'll see I am not going to set myself up for anymore dissipointment....
( WOW writing this really helped today :wink: )