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twinkle · 04-15-2005, 05:47 AM

IT's been getting to me for a long time. I am unable to make friends - one of the reasons I'm jealous at DA for. Getting a bf has NEVER been a problem, but friends... I tell ya.

I mean, I think it takes only a certain type of people can be my friend. I'm awful at makking friends at school, for instance. Ok, here I'm talking about Frenchmen, but still. I'm sick and tired of the old explinantion: "you're too mature for them". I lack patience. In fact, I don't think they're all that interesting at all to tell you the truth. More than half of them are going home and not remained with a single idea after the classes.

Inside, I think I'm a dork. I adore, I mean really ADORE the world of ideas. I take school far too seriously - not homework, but I have respect for it. My collegues live for the classes to end. I think you might have seen the huge difference between us.

Deep down, I don't envy them, because their lives are shallow, I think. But then I think I'm wrong. It's impossible for everyone to have nothing. And my... imposing myself so much drives the others away. I have too much personality and I tend to stress the others too much.

I have made 1 friend at this Master. ONE single friend, Fanny. I know that there were others who didn't get to even do that. I would eat with her and with her other friend. In the US, there was this guy hitting at her, so he and his other male friend would join the group (we would form this group of 5 people). But I know I was there because of Fanny.

When we were going out in the US, it was ... strange. All of a sudden, some other guys started paying some attention to me - you know the rest.

It's like DA's problem, only reversed. I lack patience with those around me. I reason too much. I cannot just keep my mouth shut, when the girls spend 1 or 2 hours in their room, doing God knows what and we only have one day to visit Washington.

I think I should just take salsa classes and start my social life from there.

There some good parts of it, though. I have spent a lot of time talking to Fanny - she's from the Carraibe Islands and I'm between the only people she invited at her home. I mean I know that I can touch people deep, if I get the chance. I just... think I stress everyone. Annoying.

The oposite of Mrs. Popularity. And that's happening only (or to a MUCH bigger scale) in France. I know I can't just keep on switching countries, but it is hard to have no social life (French people stick to the friends they've made in their childhood or highschool, so it takes a certain type of people to get accepted in a new group. All of them live with their parents and have never changed the city where they live).

I liked it when I was an Erasmus. I would be with the foreigners, we barely knew our first names, but we would go out and party. The downside was that most guys were trying to get you drunk and then sleep with you. I have kept one or two contacts with that group, but the school kept me from partying too much this year. Maybe I'll give them a call.

Meanon, how are English people again?

Sorry for my rambling, I just needed to vent.

04-15-2005, 05:47 AM	#1 (permalink)
twinkle Veteran Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Posts: 2,255	My friends IT's been getting to me for a long time. I am unable to make friends - one of the reasons I'm jealous at DA for. Getting a bf has NEVER been a problem, but friends... I tell ya. I mean, I think it takes only a certain type of people can be my friend. I'm awful at makking friends at school, for instance. Ok, here I'm talking about Frenchmen, but still. I'm sick and tired of the old explinantion: "you're too mature for them". I lack patience. In fact, I don't think they're all that interesting at all to tell you the truth. More than half of them are going home and not remained with a single idea after the classes. Inside, I think I'm a dork. I adore, I mean really ADORE the world of ideas. I take school far too seriously - not homework, but I have respect for it. My collegues live for the classes to end. I think you might have seen the huge difference between us. Deep down, I don't envy them, because their lives are shallow, I think. But then I think I'm wrong. It's impossible for everyone to have nothing. And my... imposing myself so much drives the others away. I have too much personality and I tend to stress the others too much. I have made 1 friend at this Master. ONE single friend, Fanny. I know that there were others who didn't get to even do that. I would eat with her and with her other friend. In the US, there was this guy hitting at her, so he and his other male friend would join the group (we would form this group of 5 people). But I know I was there because of Fanny. When we were going out in the US, it was ... strange. All of a sudden, some other guys started paying some attention to me - you know the rest. It's like DA's problem, only reversed. I lack patience with those around me. I reason too much. I cannot just keep my mouth shut, when the girls spend 1 or 2 hours in their room, doing God knows what and we only have one day to visit Washington. I think I should just take salsa classes and start my social life from there. There some good parts of it, though. I have spent a lot of time talking to Fanny - she's from the Carraibe Islands and I'm between the only people she invited at her home. I mean I know that I can touch people deep, if I get the chance. I just... think I stress everyone. Annoying. The oposite of Mrs. Popularity. And that's happening only (or to a MUCH bigger scale) in France. I know I can't just keep on switching countries, but it is hard to have no social life (French people stick to the friends they've made in their childhood or highschool, so it takes a certain type of people to get accepted in a new group. All of them live with their parents and have never changed the city where they live). I liked it when I was an Erasmus. I would be with the foreigners, we barely knew our first names, but we would go out and party. The downside was that most guys were trying to get you drunk and then sleep with you. I have kept one or two contacts with that group, but the school kept me from partying too much this year. Maybe I'll give them a call. Meanon, how are English people again? Sorry for my rambling, I just needed to vent.