Oddly enough....one of my most specific memories was when I was in 7th Grade. I was mad at my Mom and was going to pay her back by not eating the stupid lunch she had made me.
By the end of the day, before I went home from school, I felt SO GUILTY....until I sat next to the dumpster fixing my lunch so that she would think I had eaten it. (I left a couple of bread crusts in the baggy and some apple.....it was so stupid since normally I didn't bring home left over lunch stuff to begin with.) Then, I went home and made sure it was on the top of our kitchen garbage so she would see it.
I made the decision then I would never try to hurt her feelings again and then spent the rest of my life honestly trying not to hurt people's feelings. I've not always succeeded....but the guilt I go through is worse than whatever they were feeling at the time. I'm a complete SCHMUCK to this day!
Again.....STUPID story.....but it turned out to have life changing results.
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