but i don't want her to leave for college.

she doesn't have to leave, we have a very good college and university right here and she can stay at home with us until she finishes. save money doing it that way. besides, i'll still have erika here.
Hubby still isn't home and i'm still all alone bored out of my skull. when you're used to having kids around to take care of then bam! they're gone for a little while, it's an adjustment!