The hardest thing to do is break it off with someone you care about....but you know just isn't right for you....especially when they don't feel the same way. It takes being tough and firm about it.
Personally, I would disable the IM. Only when you cut contact does it allow your head to think straight. It's REALLY hard to do though Twinkle. I totally understand and feel for you.
I wish I could help you and do it for you.....but it's one of those crappy times in life when the only person who can end it all...is you. I'm sorry....cause I know how you feel.
= tears for Twinks!