Epiphany
I've had an epiphany today. This is not what I want. I did something I didn't do in long time: listened to some Latino music. Maybe you find it silly, but I adore dancing. And I did dance in my room. The hell with dead lines, I'm in tittled to my 30 minutes of dancing.
I've realised that it was not what I wanted. I've realised I've been depressed for months, that I wasn't feeling pleasure in doing anything, including living. I'm sorry, he gets me down, he makes me feel unsure and this is not how I want to live my life.
I was listenting to that music and ... I realised I didn't feel that excitement in ages. Maybe it's my fault for letting it get this far.
I actually wrote and sent him the message I wanted him to send this other girl. He said he'd do it. I just don't care anymore. I've decided I wanted out.
So if you have any ideas about how I should break up with him, it would be great. I feel stupid, 'cause I've stayed with him through so much crap, and now... I don't know how to tell it to him, how to act... At firstI thought I wanted revenge. Right now all I care is to simply end this as quickly as possible.
Waiting for your crazy suggestions.
Thank you all for being here for me, for listening to me, for putting up with me all this time.
Love you all,
Diana
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