I can't say I regret the relationshoips I had and didn't work.
What I do regret is one relationship I did not have the courage to pursue. I was still in highschool and I knew this guy way older than me - 8 years I think. HE was and is still the most GORGEOUS male I ever laid eyes on. Green eyes, blach hair, olive complexion, tall, perfect taste in music, very laid back style of clothes... I think he had in his bed half the women in my city. HE was a salesman at the coolest music store in town, had really hot friends, anyway... real dreamy.
I was with my friends hanging around that store, he came to me, casually dropped in the conversation he'd be at a certain party, etc. He did the right moves, we kissed but i like being in control. I was scared. There were lots of girls doing the same thing as I did, so I just didn't trust him.
We had a few dates and it was a bit certain where things were heading. HE'd never call, it was always me doing most of the job. On one side it was sooo incredible, no one knew we were going out, I felt no pressure from him, but still... I would have liked some more effort. So I stopped going to his work place and that was it.
I know he is the best kisser I ever met and I don't even want to imagine how he was in bed
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It was a dangerous time, I had to prepare my entrance exam at the university and was to leave town next year. It was years untill I totally stopped thinking about him. Unfortunately I'm the type of girl that cannot have affairs. I give my heart completely once a man gets me in his bed. Only two succeded so far, so I'm extracarefull. I hate getting hurt.