That's my point, Meanon. As time goes by, I feel less and less inclined to compromise, I have got work to do, I don't have the time to be sweet and nice and pro compromising all the time.
On the other hand, he's a very considerate young man. He has a sense of attention that drives me wild and a curiosity that constntly drives him to try things I like/want versus things he'd rather do.
But that is right now. I mean I already see that after one year, he is less inclined to do that. He does lots of other nice things, like even if he cannot cook he chooses to stay with me in the kitchen, and so on.
I don't know. I am a bit tired, lots of work and it just striked me. I cannot always keep things fit, under control, perfect. Nor do I want to. And ... inspite his good traits ... he's difficult. More: having a relationship (I won't even mention kids) is difficult. And I've left that place way too little time ago to go back.
I just don't feel like putting all the effort all over again. And I don't think I have the choice! And I like that even less !!!
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