Hummm I have noticed with the relationship with Greg lately that I am 110% sabatoging this relationship, I know I am and I remind myself to stop but I can't..... Maby I don't want to change.... or maby I don't know how. But I am getting to the point where I am very mentally abusive to him andhe has done some pretty harsh stuff to me but he doesn't deserve to come home to a Bi**h, and he doesn't deserve to be called names when he aggrivates me.. the problem is I would NEVER EVER speak or treat anyother person this way and I am doing it with him as I did with Noahs father... maby the resentment I have twards the both of them has pushed me to be abusive or maby it is a pattern after I have become comfortable.
Greg used to be my best friend and now he isn't I try to remember our friendship and I can honestly say if we we're just buddies and he was with a girl like me I would tell him to RUN!! he is really a good guy, I just don't see him that way anymore.
I don't know why I just can't let myself be happy and stop picking at everything.
