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The worst part of the whole thing is that I'm starting to feel like a stranger to the thoughts in my own head. I'm starting to feel detached somehow and almost feel as if I'm viewing someone else's life through a tv screen.
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I had this once. Generally, I'm in tune with my feelings but there was a long spell when I was growing increasingly unhappy with my life, yet the only way of getting through it was to isolate the source of unhappiness, find other things to do which I got pleasure from, try (initially sucessfully but increasingly unsuccessfully) to be happy despite a difficult situation. I don't regret it, its worked for many years but it had some pretty unfortunate effects and the house came crashing down in the end anyway.
In an ideal world, it's better to face up to your feelings - express them, get over them. I read your other post. I don't agree that you should let your head see you through this difficult period. It's your heart that hurts, let it recover in it's own way, rollercoasters and all
. You've held it together in the hols for your daughter. Now have some time to yourself, do whatever you need to in order to make yourself feel better again.
Once you've done what you need to, your head and heart will be reunited and you'll be able to regain control of your life. Don't worry about being depressed, Duke. You are at a low point, a natural reaction to what's happened. You'll recover.