Is it possible that you're a little depressed? Depression has its way of sneaking up on you and hits you hard before you know it.
I wish there were something I can do to make you feel better about things. I know you've had some let downs and that's gotta hurt. The Holidays don't help either. Being alone on Holdays is enough to depress anyone.
What I do when I feel myself getting depressed is keep busy. That usually snaps me right out of it. I'll go on a cleaning binge or go visiting family and friends. Being around people helps.
I hope you feel better soon Duke. I really truly wish there was something I could do to help you.
