[Duke]

As some of you may know, I met a lady online a few years back. I was not looking to meet anyone as I had my own demons that I was dealing with. Well, we talked daily and started growing closer toward each other, mentally of course. For me it was the first time that I ever knew as much as I do about another person because I've always started off phsical and never much cared about the mental. This was the first time for me to actually get to know my partner and I thought it was great, the key word being thought.

She was slated to fly down on the 23rd but couldn't due to a close cousin being hospitalized in a diabetes related coma. Of course it was in her best interests to stay there until everything was settled. The problem is, the morning of the 23rd was also the last time I've heard from her even though she promised me she'd call the night of the 23rd. I understand that things get in the way sometimes but here we are, 3 1/2 full days later and not a word. I've been sitting in my apartment the whole time waiting to hear something which means no Christmas Eve at my brothers and a Christmas Day full of wondering and worry.

I personally can't believe that a person who cares would allow this sort of thing to happen so I'm considering telling her to go to hell when and if she ever calls and giving her instructions how to get there. I don't feel I'm overreacting either as we've been in similar situations before, the last one I actually called the whole thing off. It made her miserable (or so I was led to believe) and I was assured that I would never be left in the dark again. Here we are and I'm so PO'd that I'm actually shaking as I write this message.

Sorry for the rant, but I hate feeling like this.